I’m going on a little roadtrip tomorrow to apply for a job. I really want this. Please? It’s scary. It feels like you’re not good enough and everyone’s judging you. Job searching is really abbout putting yourself out there and thats not really my thing. Can I stay home and sleep, eat and watch tv for the rest of my life?

Mellan äkta och falsk
Mellan sanning och lögn
Vi är idioter

I wish I could find love and someone to run away with. 

I can’t because I’m ugly and unloveable.

I knew it wouldn’t last. Fuck my life. I can’t believe people can be so selfish. We’re supposed to be a family. I hate my sister and her husband. They ruin life. They take and take and they never give anything back. A simple thank you would suffice. I mean you take everything and you can’t even say thank you. Take me away.

I’m sick of not having any money!!!!

Tonight I celebrate with champagne!

I think I might be allergic to the hair bleach I used. I have red itchy spots all over my face and my face is really swollen. Plus my scalp is itchy.